You’ve probably heard it said that happy people do not make good writers. It’s true, the kinds of things happy people have to write about sound either unbelievable, braggy, or just plain boring. I suppose this is why I haven’t written in a while. Life […]
Hello everyone, I weigh 113.5 pounds! Just received my chemo to start Cycle 10 of Consolidation II. This is the last round, and then hereafter it is Maintenance. So what’s Maintenance? Basically, it’s the core of Consolidation II, with less, much less, steroids. Hopefully this […]
First snow in the valley today. Here comes the mail carrier. He’s wearing shorts. Shorts in winter. How Utah. The snowfall has made me giddy. I love living in a place with seasons, but it really only works when you have a whole year under […]
Momentum No more feeding tube…for now. I hope never again. And nothing permanent installed either. But if it becomes necessary, I’ll happily put it back in. My pride is not that great. It’s simply wonderful to have a break from the ongoing noise of the […]
Being a patient patient: cultivating fortitude and calm.
n. a person who is under medical care or treatment.
adj. bearing provocation, annoyance, misfortune, delay, hardship, pain, etc., with fortitude and calm and without complaint, anger, or the like.
Okay. After this week I am officially over it. I am tired of taking pills x number of times a day and at certain hours; going to doctor’s appointments and waiting; my body changing and worrying about every little change and what it might mean and if it is permanent; chemo therapy; the threat of hospital stays, and therefore hospital food; looking into the future and seeing more doctor’s appointments, more chemo, more prescriptions. Bah. I want this to be over. I am not patient, so I don’t want to be a patient.
This is the first installment of a blog by Brandi Chase called Lymphoblaster. It is an online chronicle through Leukemia. Living in Australia with her husband, film composer Randin Graves, Brandi, grieving the loss of her father 2 months prior, began to feel ill. On […]